concerning all i love and hate....

so...
its been just under 2 months, and a lot of stuff has happened...

ive turned 21, fucking finally, went to vegas with my dad and waif...
(more on vegas later)

actually, sadly enough, thats almost it...
but theres this girl at my work, i really really like her... what to do...

i think im pretty sure ive received some signals,
and im about equally as positive ive sent some back...

for the last week and a half at work, ive been restraining myself from telling her how i feel about her... tonight i almost had the chance....
its just fucking tough for me to tell anyone, let alone this girl, how i actually feel, its just im a 95% introverted person when it comes to people that i dont know too well.

fucking fuck fuck fuck
i need to just tell her i really like her...
get this chicken shit crap outta the way,

fuck.

fuckity fucking fucktastic fucking fuck fuck...


- el