"It's hard to pity a fool if you get too close."

some days... i feel like...

"...checked into his room, only to find Gideon's Bible..."

right right...
im fine...
anyone who says different is wrong...

got a bottle of glenlivet..
trying to kill him ASAP...
anyone who wants to help is more than welcome...

ill be at the Dry Creek with a flask in my pocket trying to kill feelings...
wiss me luck :D

- rusticle

'CUT HIM IN HALF, COUNT HIS RINGS!'

yes.... so....

'i should now, in about a month...'

so yes...
many many, many great important things...


ha....
you all can wait...


- the Rusta-dopolous

'I don't drink beer... I shower...'

so yes,
i have many amazing friends, but why? What all do i have to offer them?

im here, back in 'boy' but again, i wonder, 'why...'
sure, seeing everyone is great, but, does the inconveinance to them warrant my being here?

im broke, and i feel like a bastard...
im out of fucking options..

even though ive never been surrounded by so many friends, ive never felt so lonely in my life...
might as well through myself in front of a CATS bus...

EVERYONE...
whos first name doesnt start with S or J....
donate to the 'Keep the Rusto alive in Chico' fund...

cause otherwise im leaving here in a matter of days... and i really dont want to miss the Math...

but...

sigh, is this all really worth the fucking Drama...


- el

My Kingdom...

OK...

been flakin...
but seriously...

been playing too much World of Warcraft... (lvl. 59 pally on Kalecgos)
game is bad for you.

reading alot... my mom just got a Bowflex... (yeah i know... shut up.. i tried talking her out of it.. she was 100% adamant about it.)

pretty much doing what ive always been doing.... nothing too fucking great... nothing new.
smoking more, drinking less...

but you know... 'its all your journey'
ha, fucking right...

anyway...
my kingdom for some fucking caffeine... i have a headache... you dont even fucking know...

the nature of the pensive becomes a rueful piety of those whom look for a dogma, in normal life.... or undeadness... you understand...

so...
you know, shit sucks...
some doesnt...
friends rule, and i owe them 'big time'...
other not so much rulage... and you suck... 'big time'.... (HA, fuck you Tom...)

err.. when im not all jaded and sick i'll elaborate


- el